Just a little insight to me as i have been away from chat for a while now.... though
there are a few people who are members here that i do keep in touch with but i
thought i'd write a little about whats been happening with me since i left chat... as
some may know, the end of last year i was Pregnant and had just moved in with my
boyfriend Aaron in his house in East London, the pregnancy was planned, we had been
trying for nearly a year without success, i found out in November 2007 that finally i
was pregnant, we was really happy, i had mixed feelings at first but happiness
afterwards, sadly though i had a missed miscarriage when i was 13 weeks, i had been
slightly spotting 10 days before but the hospital said it is probably nothing to
worry about and booked me in for a scan 10 days later, that was when Aaron saw his
unborn baby without a heartbeat, i didnt see it as the hospital bed was facing away
from the machine, our baby died inside of me, i had an operation and they took my
buba from me, i have a scan still of it when i was 7weeks gone, looks like a little
peanut, so those who knew i was pregnant i am sad to share my news with you, some
people do know what happened i.e Matty, Rob, Leo and Angelic thats about it i think,
so then 6 weeks later the rented private accomodation that we was living in was being
sold, the council offered Aaron a studio flat in Essex, it is a good size but not big
enough for me him and our 2 dogs so on the 3rd March i moved back to my mum's
house.... i was unemployed still for a while but then i got a job as a secretary for
an accountancy firm which is where i am to date, its a nice place to work in but an
hour or so from my house in Tottenham. So after all the badness the beginning of the
year brought me, it finally looks like everything will be ok, i still think about the
bump that was growing inside me, and at one stage it nearly broke me and Aaron but i
know i cant let it take over my life, its our angel above now :-)! They say start
the year as you mean to go on, i say START APRIL as you mean to go on. Sorry if
know-one wanted to know any of this but i thought i'd let you in, know the real
Claire, i have grown up alot over the years, im a family woman now, i prefer nights
in to nights out, i prefer wine to beer, i prefer cigarettes to cigarettes lol.
I didnt write this for anyone to feel sorry for me so please dont think that, like i
said i have been away for a while so i thought we could play catch up.
Claire x o x